I just got back from a fireside where a woman talked about her husbands sex and pornography addiction then how we need to be educated about it. i am completely amazed! it was beautiful! there were about a million things i want to talk about and tell you about but i just picked one.
she said that she felt like it was her responsibility and fault that he kept relapsing into his addiction. she said if only she were more attractive, or sexual, or smart, or spiritual, SHE could fix it. But you can't. You can not make the journey for anyone else but your self.
This doesn't mean don't help others along the way, it means that you can't blame yourself, and you have to remember that you are a child of God and deserve the best most wonderful life.
She said that she would tell herself that maybe she was just expecting too much or he was just too busy. I feel like every girl, including myself, has said these things to herself. These are lies. We deserve to be enamored by and to enamor, to be obsessed, and to be obsessed over. To be adored, and to adore. To be so loved that its sick to everyone else. To be so in love and so trusting of each other that it doesn't even matter what anyone else thinks anyway.
I think she was the bravest woman I've ever heard speak. She reminded me of what I deserve and what I need to do to deserve it. It goes both ways, always.
We deserve honesty and love. And that's that.
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